I just am having a difficult time reporting about Lillian's demise. She had a very strong turn for the worse almost 3 weeks before she died. I regret the pain she had to endure, the two hospital stays, the move to a new nursing home. All of that when you are almost blind is so very disrupting even when the nurses are kind and patient.
Lillian was very used to "The Manor House". We moved her to "Homestead Rehab and Nursing Center" where she could get more care, her Doctor, Dr. Ottosen was part of that decision, it also is connected to the "Deer River Hospital" so we didn't ever have to take her outside again. Her second hospital stay all the had to do to run some tests was wheel her over to the hospital.
I guess it was just her time to go because her system started shutting down starting with no eating and hardly any drinking.
The thing I feel so good about is her body was telling us it was time to let her go, I said my goodbye to her the Thursday before she died, someone was always with her those last 3 weeks and in all honesty, the suffering was minimal. I really didn't think she would be gone this soon. I had just purchased her some new slacks and jackets for the nursing home. she wore them once I think. I sat with her on that Thursday, I had hung the "Amazing Grace" poster photo above her bed and sang to her rubbing her arm and holding her hand. The music, the words seemed to calm her, that was when my tears came. Them came because of the pain she was going through. There were quite a few days she just yelled out in what seemed like pain every other minute or so. That afternoon we wen to hospice and signed her up and they took over managing her pain and end of life. It happened the following Monday at 8:50 am. We had the funeral on Wednesday at 2pm with Bonnie her niece officiating. Jane sung beautifully 2 songs, "Amazing Grace and In the Garden or was it Have Thine Own Way". She is at peace, Jim said goodbye to her on the Sunday before she died.
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